I chose to reflect on 2019 today, and not tomorrow 31 December, because we have our blog story already fixed that day.
2019…it wasn’t a good year for me. The failed investments and money lost left me in a state of bitterness for many long months. I was broken and almost without hope at some point. I pretended to function, because to do otherwise would have attracted the attention I didn’t want at the time. It was my burden, my mistakes, and I was determined this time to work through it alone.
When the month of November came to an end, I knew then I didn’t want to step into 2020 in that state of hopelessness and self-blame. I’d seen a tweet that talked about forgiving yourself and realised that I never ever forgive myself for my failures. So, I made up my mind to be kind to myself, to forgive myself my mistakes. To give myself a new hope, a new chance.
And thus, I choose to be thankful in spite of my losses. I am thankful for I am able to see the end of the year and decide to work harder for a better year. I am thankful that I am well in body, in mind and spirit as much as I’m able to be.
More than this, I am thankful for my family. They were a great support as always when I let them in. I am thankful for you, my blog family and for my readers. I am especially thankful for you all who buy every story I write. May God bless you all.
2019…it may not have been a good year, but I am choosing to leave it in a state of gratitude and hope. May the coming year, and years, be better. God bless us all.