Sometimes I just think of how far I’ve come since I consciously made the decision to know who I am.
I must confess that I have not been as diligent as I should have been in my journey of self-discovery. I have not been as conscious as I should have been.
Still, I am proud of where I am.
One thing is very distinct, in this place where I am, I no longer fall prey to depressive moods. I am more in control of how I choose to continue to feel per time.
This little triumph has not been easy, as there is still so much not working the way I want them to. But in spite of the temptation to crumble and give up, I hang on and believe.
It’s still something of a struggle to keep writing. There are still days when I can’t write, no matter how hard I try. There are days when I want to entirely give up fiction writing.
Just yesterday, my chest tightened with the temptation to withdraw all my books from Okadabooks and just shut down.
But I breathed, and I beat that temptation. I did not cry, and I did not wallow in self-pity. Instead, I worked on my blog, rearranging my messed up categories, and then pondered on ways to promote Not Fairy-Tale.
A good move.
I look ahead of me and I see the long way I still have to go, and I try not to panic.
I can do it.
I will do it.
I’m thankful for today. I’m thankful for what is available today. I’m thankful for my faith and strength today.
One step at a time, I will walk my boring trail of life.
My personal word of inspiration today:
“Though I stand alone, I am not lonely.”