Sometimes I just think of how far I’ve come since I consciously made the decision to know who I am.

I must confess that I have not been as diligent as I should have been in my journey of self-discovery. I have not been as conscious as I should have been.

Still, I am proud of where I am.

One thing is very distinct, in this place where I am, I no longer fall prey to depressive moods. I am more in control of how I choose to continue to feel per time.

This little triumph has not been easy, as there is still so much not working the way I want them to. But in spite of the temptation to crumble and give up, I hang on and believe.

It’s still something of a struggle to keep writing. There are still days when I can’t write, no matter how hard I try. There are days when I want to entirely give up fiction writing.

Just yesterday, my chest tightened with the temptation to withdraw all my books from Okadabooks and just shut down.

But I breathed, and I beat that temptation. I did not cry, and I did not wallow in self-pity. Instead, I worked on my blog, rearranging my messed up categories, and then pondered on ways to promote Not Fairy-Tale.

A good move.

I look ahead of me and I see the long way I still have to go, and I try not to panic.

I can do it.

I will do it.

I’m thankful for today. I’m thankful for what is available today. I’m thankful for my faith and strength today.

One step at a time, I will walk my boring trail of life.

My personal word of inspiration today:

“Though I stand alone, I am not lonely.”

Cheers.